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Burial Date July 1, 2006
Funeral Home Mercadante Funeral Home & Chapel
Place of Service Christ the King Church
Section Garden of Valor II Lot Number: 408Grave Number: C #1
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Anonymous
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March 7, 2024
Happy heavenly birthday Gram 🌙❤️ love you to the moon and back
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Anonymous
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March 6, 2013
Happy Birthday Mom! You are so missed! Even young Heidi made mention the other day of how much she missed you. Not a day goes by that I try to talk to you. I still wonder how you handled 7 different personalities I just barely handle 3. Your guidance is severly missed. I sure could use one of your famous hugs. So Happy Birthday Martha! My quote of the day is "A man loves his sweetheart the most, his wife the best, but his mother the longest. ~Irish Proverb Jack
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Anonymous
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December 24, 2011
I could not let the day go by without writing to you. As your oldest son I have not been a good writer to you or my brother need to fix that in the New Year. We are sad today for Lisa losing Peter. I spoke to her on the phone and must say how strong she sounded. She actually sounded like you on the phone? I am sad that I cannot be there for my Sister except to tell her how sorry I am. Wonderful Marcia and Tracey went to Andover to be with their sister. Martha you did a great job with the girls! Anyhow, Merry Christmas Mom. While searching for something for Peter I found this to share with you. "You can only have one mother Patient kind and true; No other friend in all the world, Will be the same to you. When other friends forsake you, To mother you will return, For all her loving kindness, She asks nothing in return. As we look upon her picture, Sweet memories we recall, Of a face so full of sunshine, And a smile for one and all. Sweet Jesus, take this message, To our dear mother up above; Tell her how we miss her, And give her all our love." I love you Mom. Jackie
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Anonymous
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June 28, 2011
Songs of life,they ring..from quiet steeples to distant valleys..along the hillsides of mothers hearts...of mothers hearts And I'll sing my songs of life,that I may hold you,inside forever..and you will know me and I'll be yours and you'll be mine.... I could hear you singing that this morning....I will "sit"with you later today.... Peace and love Marcia
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Anonymous
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May 8, 2011
5/8/2011 - Happy Mother's Day Mom! I'll be looking for a sign from you when I visit you today! I miss you very much! Love always, Tracey
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Anonymous
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May 7, 2011
Happy Mothers Day Mom.... You are missed and loved today..and everyday. Give me a sign on Lake Winnepasaukee...I'll be watching for it... Peace and love Marcia
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traceytubert
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March 7, 2011
March 6, 2011 Happy Birthday Mom! I was so hoping for a sunny and pretty day for your birthday. I hope it was a bright and happy day in your world... I love you and miss you so very, very much! Tracey
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Marcia Mulcahy
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March 6, 2011
Happy Birthday Mom.... I love and miss you... I saw a rainbow this morning on my way to work and I smiled..knowing you were with me. Marcia
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nancyrobidoux
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March 6, 2011
Happy Birthday Mom! It was a beautiful day in Arizona, just the kind you would have enjoyed. I miss you. Love, Jack
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traceytubert
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October 29, 2010
Hi Mom, Last night, I watched your favorite holiday show, Charlie Brown's Halloween special, and thought of you the entire time. I know how much it made you smile and you have such a pretty smile which I miss seeing so much! I'll always remember how festive your apt. looked during the fall season and I always try to replicate it in my own home. Wish you could be here with me to help with decorations (though something tells me you're with me in spirit)! Did you like the plant and little pumpkins Marcia and I brought to you last Sunday? I know you did because we got a sign from you and I thank you! It was a cloudy day and I asked that you give us a sign that you knew we were there and all of a sudden a beam of sunshine shone directly on us! That was you I know because you always brought and continue to bring sunshine into my life! Thanks for being with all of us in your very special way... Love always and forever...I miss your comforting hugs! Tracey
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Marcia Mulcahy
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June 28, 2010
Mom...Did you grab the balloons.....did you see the pinwheels spinning..... You were a precious gift from God above,so much beauty,grace and love. You touched our hearts in so many ways,your smile so bright even on the bad days. You heard God's whisper calling you home,you didn't want to go and leave us alone. You loved us so much,you held on tight,till all the strength was gone and you could no longer fight. He called your name,you knew you couldn't make Him wait. So you gave your hand to God and slowly,peacefully drifted away,knowing that with all our love,we will be together again someday. Unbelievable to me that 4 years have passed.Tracey and I saw a butterfly as we were leaving you yesterday afternoon...was it you? Again,I say thank you.... Peace and love, Marcia
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katiefralick
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June 28, 2010
Hi gramma, I'm thinking about you today and missing you dearly. I wish I could hear your voice again --- "hello daaaahlin" --- or stop by your apartment for a tonic. Everyone misses you more and more each day. We all hope you are watching over us. We love you! Your grand-daughter,Katie
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traceytubert
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June 28, 2010
Hi Mom, 4 years...hard to believe...did you catch the 4 balloons Marcia and I released to you? The butterfly makes me believe you did! Even though you're not here with me, I believe that you're looking down upon me and know everything that's going on in my life. I miss our talks, our hugs and kisses...you had a special way of making me feel everything is going to be all right. Until I see you in heaven, you are always on my mind and I continue to smell your Nina Ricci! Love to you now and forever... Tracey
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susanvalente
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June 28, 2010
Hi Mom, Just a quick note to add my love along with Tracey, Marcia and Katie. I now know why you loved to walk so much, boy can you clear your mind. I think of you every day and wonder about your long walks home. Nothing like seeing all the little Tubert's walking with you down to Feddie's and Alice's Market. I miss you with all my heart like the rest of the clan! Love, Jackie
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jacktubert
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May 27, 2010
Dearest Mom, According to the clock on the wall in Worcester it's my birthday and I want to thank you for my life! I miss you with all my heart. On May 12th I had a car accident. I am still trying to figure out how you total a car and not end up with a scratch? My guess is my Mother had something to do with it? Thank you for taking such good care of me. I wish I was with you. My brother and sisters have been so supportive and concerned. I feel bad. Kelly's Daughter Analysa is heading to North Carolina to spend a few weeks with Shannon, please keep an eye out. The family is fine. Mo's sister is very ill and I wish there was something I could do. I love you Mom! I so wish you could be here with us. Thank you again for my life. Love, Jackie
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jacktubert
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March 6, 2010
Happy Birthday Mom! According to the clock on the wall it is the 6th of March in Worcester. I have had the feeling that you have been close by the last couple of weeks. Had some health challenges that put me into the hospital for a few days. On my first night I swear I heard the Peggy Lee song is that all there is. And after that I cannot remember much. But I want you to know that I appreciate you checking in. Each time I have been in the hospital I feel your presence. One of the things I learned on this journey was all the years I never asked you questions. So many questions I will have for you when my day comes. Nothing dramatic just simple things. I took you for granted, she will always be here I have time to ask later.Your family in Arizona is well. Young Mr. Dylan is going to be a year in May. He is amazing. Patrick and Katie got married last week in Vegas. About time. Kelly and her two amazing kids are awesome. Analysa is growing into a beautiful young lady. Brandon is just handsome. Shannon has been under the weather a lot this year? Colin calls me once a day since I got out of the hospital.I love you and miss you. Jackie
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traceytubert
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March 6, 2010
Saturday, March 6, 2010 HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! I hope you caught the 7 balloons I sent you! Each one represents our love for you and we miss you dearly! I wish I could give you a big birthday hug and kisses right now! You had the warmest hug...something I'll never forget...something I look forward to when I see you in heaven! Today was such a sun-filled day which made me feel happy because that's what you deserve on your birthday! Mom, I miss you so much and wish we could be together celebrating our birthdays on a warm Caribbean island! Or even just in your comfortable apt! I look forward to your embrace soon! Love always and forever! Tracey
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Marcia Mulcahy
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March 5, 2010
Put your arms around her Lord,Don't leave her on her own.For March 6 is our Mom's birthday-Her 4th away from home.... Watch for Tracey's balloons...Look for the pretty daisies blowing in the wind.Listen for our hushed tears wishing you were here.We all love and miss you. Peace and love Marcia
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Marcia Mulcahy
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December 31, 2009
Happy 2010 to all of us. I pray you'll be our eyes,and watch us where we go.and help us to be wise in times when we don't know.let this be our prayer,when we lose our way.lead us to a place,guide us with your grace,to a place where we'll be safe. I pray we'll find your light,and hold it in our hearts.when stars go out each night, you are our eternal star. When shadows fill our day,lead us to a place,guide us with your grace and give us Faith so we'll be safe. To my brothers and sisters Believe in the mystery,the mirace,and the magic Believe in angels and natural wonders and the beauty inside people. Believe in a bright and shining new year ahead. Love and Peace to all. Marcia Mom
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Marcia Mulcahy
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December 22, 2009
How I miss that Old Fashioned Christmas!Carols being sung by the "talking"Christmas tree,Window's candlelight shining bright for the whole world to see. Children's eyes of sweet expectations,wondering what each present will hold.Lying in their beds and impatient,On long Christmas eves of old. It used to be that all the family would gather for this one night,It used to be that special feeling shared together,knowing Christmas was here one night a year. How I miss that old fashioned Christmas!Memories that last through the years.Call me sentimental;don't mind if you do.I wish an old fashioned Christmas to you. Love and Peace Marcia
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traceytubert
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June 28, 2009
Hi Mom, How can it be 3 years? It seems like just yesterday...that's how much it still hurts. Did you catch the balloons that Marcia and I released to you today? I hope it made you smile. Mom, I miss you so much and could use one of your loving hugs and kisses...somehow, it would make everything okay again...I can't wait for the hugs and kisses when I see you in heaven. Strange how I thought that today, the day of the golf tournament in Cromwell, CT (Traveler's...but before it was called the Canon Open) you, Tony and I went to it for how many years...4 or 5? I don't know why, but, I kept on thinking about the good times we had when we went to watch that tournament...walking the course, ending up at the 18th hole to watch all the players come in...then finishing our day having dinner at Saybrook House Restaurant...those memories were wonderful, but, I wish I could have you back here to have more... I love you with my heart and soul, Tracey
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Marcia Mulcahy
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June 27, 2009
3 yrs.I looked up to the sky and followed the stars.I thought I felt you right beside me saying to all of us,you are not alone.for I am here with you.Though I am far away,you're always in my heart. Look for the balloons tomorrow and HOLD ON TIGHT! You are missed Peace and love Marcia
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Marcia Mulcahy
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March 6, 2009
A "pretty day"just for you.Finally,a little warm air and the sun shining through.I thought what song could I include today.It hit me driving in,Frank Sinatra singing "The Summer Wind"played and I was whisked away to summer memories at Hampton. The summer wind came blowing in,from across the sea.It lingered here so warm and fair to walk with me.All summer long,we sang a song and strolled on golden sand...my mom and me,and the summer wind. Like painted kites,those days and nights went flying by,the world was new,beneath a blue umbrella sky.Then softer than a piper man,One day it called to you,and I lost you,to the summer wind. The autumn wind,and the winter wind have come and gone,and still the days,these lonely days go on and on...and guess who sings her lullabies through nights that never end.....my best friend,the summer wind...... I hope wherever you are today,that we all look up and see your beautiful smile through the sunny skies.... I end this with that little lullaby you used to sing whenever you held my younger brother and sisters,and all the grandkids,and great grandkids...I close my eyes and can still hear you... "Won't you come over to my house,won't you come over and play...I have some dollies and sweet things,oh won't you come over and play".... Love and Peace, Happy 82!!! Marcia And to my brothers and sisters Lets always remember where we came from,how we got here,and Who led us into the warmth of the sunshine.
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traceytubert
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March 5, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! I love you so much and miss you dearly...I wish I could give you a birthday kiss and hug now! I was looking at some of the birthday cards you've given me and one in particular stands out because the words stated could be for the both of us, "every time a day is touched by your sweet kindness, your good nature, and your gentle spirit, the world becomes a happier, more beautiful place." Mom, I am so lucky that I had you in my life as my best friend and loving mother and I cherish every moment we had together. It won't be too long that you and I are together again hugging one another with the sweet smell of your Nina Ricci. Until then, I hold onto my special memories of you... I love you with all my heart, Tracey
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marcia mulcahy
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January 19, 2009
Another snowy day here.I was thinking about all of us today.How 2009 seems to be starting out, filled with sadness and anxieties.I watched "Babe"last night and thought of you Mom.How you enjoyed that movie.I couldn't sleep so I watched"Charlotte's Web" and there was a song I thought was fitting. It's not that unusual when everything is beautiful,It's just another ordinary miracle today.The sky knows when it's time to snow,Don't need to teach a seed to grow,It's just another ordinary miracle today. Life is like a gift they say,wrapped up for you everyday.Open up and find a way to give some of your own Isn't it remarkable like every time a raindrop falls,It's just another ordinary miracle today Birds and winter have their fling but always make it home by spring,It's just another ordinary miracle today. When you wake up every day please don't throw your dreams away,hold them close to your heart cause we are all part of the ordinary miracle. It seems so exceptional that things just work out after all,The sun comes up and shines so bright and disappears again at night.It's just another ordinary miracle today..... You seemed to be giving me a subtle message to pass along to all your kids.That all things,good or bad,must pass.That we all have to hang in there and appreciate each day. We miss you Mom. Peace and love, Marcia I know you look down and hold us all so close to your heart.Give us strength...
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traceytubert
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November 25, 2008
Dear Mom, I was just reading the last Thanksgiving Day card that I received from you and how I cherish your words, "I give thanks every day for having you as my daughter, friend and caregiver. I don't know what I'd do without you! Happy Turkey Day." I give thanks every day that I had you as my loving mother and very best friend. I just wish you didn't leave me so soon. No more cards, calls, kisses and hugs from you...just memories...until I see you in heaven. I hope you give me a sign that you're with me on Thanksgiving when I bring you flowers at the cemetery. I love you so much...and I give thanks to all the love you've given me! Love always, Tracey
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marciamulcahy
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November 24, 2008
A cherished Mother and Grandmother You are and were, and will forever be You loved us all throughout a lifetime And we'll love you throughout eternity
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marciamulcahy
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November 24, 2008
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marciamulcahy
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November 24, 2008
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marciamulcahy
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November 24, 2008
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marciamulcahy
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November 24, 2008
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marcia mulcahy
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October 24, 2008
I'm sitting here at work,looking out at this"pretty day"That's how you always referred to these days when we would talk. Fall is in the air.Halloween is just around the corner and everything is still so hard without you here.I find myself remembering so many times.I can see us with Heidi raking those leaves in the backyard at 2 Conger Rd and then taking a ride to Big D on Mill St.and coming back home to take the clothes off the line...I still wonder where you are?Can you see us all and the pain we're feeling? All those conversations, when you told me that the hurt we would feel would be indescribable when you told me how much you missed Gramma.That Memorial Day weekend,your last,when we put the planters with Auntie Lea and Gramma and you looked at me with the tears.Did you know? Please whisper to all of us and reassure us that things will get better.. Love and Peace Marcia
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marcia mulcahy
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June 28, 2008
It's hard to put the right feelings into words.2 yrs have passed with so much "stuff" Who can say for certain,maybe you're still here.I feel you all around me,your memory's so clear.Fly me up to where you are,beyond the distant star.I wish upon today to see you smile.Are you gently sleeping,here inside my dream.and isn't faith believing all power can't be seen. I believe that angels breathe and live on and never leave... Watch for the 7 pinwheels spinning in your honor and glory later on.Try to grab onto the balloons that are heaven sent today too. I love and miss you Marcia
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jacktubert
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June 28, 2008
Good Morning Mama, Your leaving has left an amazing void. I read where this is supposed to get easier and I have to disagree. My prayer today said "whenever you are faced with a trial or some pending situation that will be difficult to handle pray for extra love in your heart; for it is in this way you can overcome fear, which is the bad fruit of lack of trust. Lack of trust comes from imperfections in Holy Love. Pray always, my brothers and sisters, and I will assist you in your necessities." I trust that you watch over all of your children, grandchildren and great grandchildren. Like my younger sister I am going to relase a ballon for each one of them today to celebrate your life. We just did not get to keep you long enough. I know that and trust your hand with watching the doctor remove the spot on my nose. I believe that with all my heart. So like each day I pray that you are ok. Your entire family loves you and misses you and we pray for extra understanding. In my prayer today it also said that the Lord will help, that he is our strength and he will not abandon us as long as we believe. I believe that you are in heaven and you watch over us with your love. I truly miss you! Jackie
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traceytubert
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June 27, 2008
Dear Mom, How can it be that 2 years have gone by without you? I miss you so much and always will. I bought a picture from one of my neighbors who is a brilliant artist and writer. The picture is named, "A bouquet for Mother" and when you look at this abstract bouquet of flowers, you see 7 faces...my neighbor's mother had 7 children just like you...her mother has passed also...I just had to buy it. It's hung in my hallway, leading into my bedroom, and I think of you every time I look at it. She also just published a book of poetry and one poem is named, "To My Mother" which, of course, made me cry when I read it, wishing you were here with me. I'll just share with you one quote, "As I lay down, looking to the sky, I knew you were there smiling and remembering with me. I talked some and heard you answer. After a while I walked away. I left you daisies. I looked back...the daisies were gone." Mom, I'd like to think that when I visit you at the cemetery and bring flowers, that you see them and smile. Just like last Saturday, when Lisa and I were there sitting by your marker. It was a beautiful day...we laughed...we cried...we released balloons in your honor. I'll be back there tomorrow to release 7 balloons for your children. I love you with all my heart and soul and can't wait for our reunion. Love always and forever, Tracey
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marcia mulcahy
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May 14, 2008
A very sad couple of days.I was driving home late last night and Carole King came on the radio.I felt like you were sitting with me.I've heard this song a million times and never really absorbed the words.Maybe you were trying to get the song out for all of us to cope. When you're down and troubled and you need some loving care...and nothing,nothing is going right,Close your eyes and think of me and soon I will be there to brighten up even your darkest night. If the sky above you grows dark and full of clouds And that old north wind begins to blow,keep your head together and call out loud,and soon you'll hear me whispering your name..... I pray for all of us today. I am thankful that it's all been resolved and you could not read the story today.I hope that if there is a force out there you are able to extend that to Buzz and wrap your arms around him and keep him strong. Peace and love Marcia
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marcia mulcahy
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May 10, 2008
Happy Mothers Day I wish you were here so I could say THANK YOU. Miss you and love you Marcia
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jacktubert
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May 10, 2008
Happy Mother's Day! You are always in our thoughts and prayers. I apologize for not spending more time on your web page. But I know that you know you are loved and missed. On this day before Mother's Day we are going to celebrate Ms. Kylie Tubert's first birthday. I close my eyes and she is an infant and now a year old. She is a wonderful child Mom. She looks a great deal like Jody at the same age. Patrick and Katie are wonderful parents. I hope and pray that on Monday the 12th you can spend some time with me? I told Tracey that they found I have a basil cell carcinoma on my nose. You know me and the sun. So they are going to remove the cancer from my nose. Tracey has been wonderful sharing information so I could understand. She also shared information about you and your past challenges with the sun. So if you can drop in I would feel much better. Hey in a couple of weeks I turn 59. I found it hard to believe that Lisa turned 50. Where has all the time gone? Thanks for giving me life! Everyone in Chandler is doing well. Even Kelly has started to make a turn for the better. Shannon and Scott are in the process of buying a home. Mo said it is wonderful. Patrick is doing well in his new job of a General Manager of a Denny's. Maureen continues to work hard and loves being a Grandmother. So I think I have you all caught up like when we would talk on the phone. I refuse to take your number off my cell phone. I suppose that's dumb? I love you dearly! And like the rest of the family miss you a great deal. I wish you were here so I could talk about Monday with you. Happy Mother's Day! Love, Jackie
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traceytubert
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May 9, 2008
Happy Mother's Day, Mom. The strangest thing happened to me the other day...I know you were with me. I was working at a rehab hospital...thinking of you...because that's where you were supposed to be discharged to after the Brigham. I was in the stairwell...no one else there...and all of a sudden I could smell Nina Ricci. I bet you knew I was feeling sad, thinking back to your last days, and the pleasant smell of your perfume put both a smile on my face and tears to eyes. I miss you just as much as the day you passed...not a day goes by when I don't think about you. I envy my friends who still have their mothers and tell them to cherish every moment. No one could give a hug like you...that's what I look forward to when I finally see you in heaven. I LOVE YOU!!! Tracey
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marcia mulcahy
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March 6, 2008
Mom Happy birthday.Did you see the little item in the paper today? Nothing is the same without you here. I hope you know you are in all of our hearts and thoughts today...and everyday. Peace and love Marcia
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jacktubert
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March 6, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! What a wonderful memory I have of your birthday in Chandler Arizona a few years ago. I can remember the amazment of your Great Granddaughter wanting to be so close to you. I think it is important to treasure the memories. You brought so much joy to my family those few days. I think all of us good use a hug right now. And I realize that each of us is going through different experiences on this day. The bond between a child and their Mom is said to be one of the strongest ties in life? I guess I will always feel guilty that I did not fly home before you had to leave? You are loved and missed and I celebrate your day. I hope you know that not a day goes by that you are not in my thoughts and prayers? Happy Birthday Mom. Love, Jackie
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traceytubert
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March 5, 2008
March 6th - Happy Birthday Mom! Did you like the balloons and flowers I brought to you? I hope it made you smile in heaven. Oh how I wish we were celebrating your birthday in your cozy apt...with a little cake & candles...and big hugs and kisses from me to you and you to me. We always celebrated our birthdays together...it was especially nice when we planned a vacation for our celebration...Arizona, Curacao, Myrtle Beach. I wish we had one more vacation together...I'd do anything to make that wish come true. Instead, we'll see one another when I join you in heaven...I can't wait for a big hug from you...it always gave me such a sense of comfort and strength. I pray you give me a sign on your special day that you're looking over me...I LOVE YOU ALWAYS & FOREVER and MISS YOU TERRIBLY! Tracey
Posted by:
heidikelly
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February 1, 2008
(UPDATE RE: Grave Site) While spending time with Gram I noticed that her eternal candle was just about to go out, so I replaced it with a new candle on Thursday. I'm not sure of who takes care of that normally (Buzz?) but I figured I would relay the info. This way everyone can be at peace knowing she is not without the glow of her night light...
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marcia mulcahy
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January 10, 2008
The January thaw is here.A beautiful sunny day.I can picture you hanging out laundry and then sitting on the back stairs at 2 Conger Road and getting some sun!! Seems like yesterday. I wonder if you can see what's going on with all of us?Is there some cosmic screen that allows you to take a peek? If so,maybe you could whisper to Robert on Monday that you're near. "When I find myself in times of trouble,my mother comes to me,speaking words of wisdom,let it be.And in my hour of darkness,she is standing right in front of me.Let it be,whisper words of wisdom..... And when the night is cloudy,There is still a light that shines on me,Shine on until tomorrow,let it be...... There will be an answer,let it be.Whisper words of wisdom,let it be.... I pray that you are safe and well and guiding us all... Love and Peace Marcia
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marcia mulcahy
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December 24, 2007
O Holy Night! The stars are bright shining It is the night of the dear Saviour's birth. Long lay the work in sin and error pining.Till He appeared and the Spirit felt its worth.A thrill of hoe the weary world rejoices,For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn. Fall on your knees!Oh,hear the angel voices! O night devine,the night when Christ was born; O night,O Holy Night,o night divine! It just doesn't seem the same without you here Mom Peace,Love,Merry Christmas I like to think you are somewhere looking over all of us today,tonight,tomorrow and holding us all in your heart. Marcia
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traceytubert
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December 24, 2007
Hi Mom, Did you know I was at the cemetery today? Were you looking down upon me? Heidi made a very special tree with pictures of you and the grandkids...it was perfect. I cried when I saw the picture of you in the star...you looked so healthy then. I still can't really remember those days...seeing your condition worsen your last year...unfortunately those memories are vivid. The second Christmas without you...it feels even worse than last year. I miss you terribly and the holidays make it hurt so much. I long for a hug and kiss from you...the comfort of your arms...always made me feel so safe. I pray that I feel your presence on Christmas morning...it would mean everything to me. I love you so much, Mom. Don't forget the hug when I see you in heaven... Love always, Tracey
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marcia mulcahy
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December 12, 2007
I went shopping at Price chopper the other day and I cried when I saw the display of walnuts,chestnuts,etc..in the aisle.All I could picture was your basket filled with them on Thanksgiving and Christmas.I closed my eyes and saw everyone sitting around cracking nuts. I heard Dominic the Donkey and I smiled and cried. I watched "For one more day"and I cried.Not quite as good as the book... I sat thinking if I had one more day with you,what would we do? I would like to see us all together at your place and we all get to say,THANK YOU to you for everything.Why is it so hard for people to just say,Thanks? I would like to tell you that I miss those times.You were responsible for holding everything and everyone together. I look at the stars and I hope you're somewhere making them twinkle... Peace and love Marcia
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traceytubert
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November 1, 2007
Hi Mom, It's inevitable that the holidays are approaching...tough to look forward to them without you. Holidays mean absolutely nothing to me without you. I used to love going to your cute apartment at the start of the holidays because you'd have your little home decorated so pretty...with such warmth. I've decorated my home a bit with some of the decorations you had in your home...the fall leaves...the jack'o'lanterns...maybe you can see them from heaven? The strangest thing happened to me today...I went to the Brigham for a test and as I was leaving there I smelled "Nina Ricci" - was that a sign from you??? Whenever I go there, I'm flooded with memories of you, but, not the memories I want because that's when you were nearing your end and at your worst. I'm still praying that soon I'll start having nice dreams of you and remember you as the vibrant, healthy and strong woman you were. You will always, always be my best friend...can't wait for a big hug from you when I see you in heaven! Eternal love, Tracey
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marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
October 31, 2007
Hi Mom The holidays are here..Halloween today and I remember all the birthday parties with Heidi and all the kids....How you always enjoyed it!!! You made the best cakes.Remember the Barbie cake for Heidi. I so enjoy the picture of the girls and Todd dressed in their halloween costumes,taken at 2 Conger Rd....How can it be so long ago,but I remember it as if it were yesterday?? There are days when it's still so overwhelming to me,that you are not here. John's Mom assures me that you are in such a beautiful,happy place and you are just a thought away.That keeps me going.... So,keep watching over all of us...the days are going by so fast. Love and peace Marcia I miss you
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
October 11, 2007
Hi Mom Here it is 16 months and today I am missing you so much.Maybe because it's a lousy,dark,cloudy day? I've been very busy hiding at work.But.not a day or a thought goes by where I remember good things.I still pick up the phone and think I will be able to tell you what's going on with me.For me,that is the strangest.That you're not a phone call away. I sit out in our backyard and I am very aware of butterflies..and there always seems to be little white ones fluttering around.Especially when I am able to hang out laundry.So,that brings me a little peace. I pray that you are at a much happier place and I look forward to catching up with you someday and you can"show me around" Love and peace Marcia
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
September 6, 2007
Hi Mom, I thought of you every moment up at Lisa's lake house this past weekend. Lisa, Peter & I were talking about all the fun times we had with you & Tony. Memories to cherish...I know you were with me because a beautiful butterfly landed on my arm and stayed with me for a couple of minutes. I'm certain that it was a sign from you...I really needed that because I've been missing you so much. I still hurt just as badly as I did over a year ago when you left me. I will never have the kind of special relationship that I had with you. As I sit here at my computer, I just wonder if you're looking over me? I look at all the nice pictures of you on my desk and wish I could bring you back. I could really use a big hug from you! I wish I had half the strength you had...no matter what obstacle presented, you dealt with it and persevered. Well Mom, it'll be so nice when I see you in heaven! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! Tracey
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
August 8, 2007
Well,like you used to say after coming home from Hampton Beach and vacation..."Back to reality". I sat everyday by the jetty looking at the water and people and couldn't help but remember all the good times.Can it be over 35 years already? You reminded me of alot of different,fun,times. Watching the fireworks on Wed.I had the feeling that you were with me--thru the beautiful,bright colors.Maybe that's what Heaven is like..all bright lights. I had brought up my photo albums and the one Lisa had made for me.I have not really looked at them because it's been hard. But,alot of the photos were of all of us,growing up,at Hampton Beach.Amazing. So,I sit here hoping and praying you are okay. Love and miss you Marcia
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
June 28, 2007
Dear Mom, One year today...I can't believe it. I miss you so much...your laugh...your smile...your warmth...your hugs...your kisses...your love. I'm finishing Fannie Flagg's book, "Can't Wait to Get to Heaven" and know that you read it too. I got a sign from you when I was reading the other day and I thank you! I felt your presence then so I know you're watching over me. I wish that you could come back to life like Elner in the book. That it was just a big mistake...a brief trip to heaven to see those that have passed before you but then return to those that love you. If only I had one wish... I'm going to the cemetery after work today to release some balloons. I hope they reach you. Mom, I hope heaven is what Elner described because then at least I'd know you're happy. I pray you're at peace...know that you were my world...hug me when I join you in heaven! Love always and forever, Tracey
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
June 28, 2007
June 28,2007 Thursday I heard you singing to us today. Baby mine,don't you cry. Baby mine,dry your eyes. Rest your head close to my heart,never to part,baby of mine..... Tonight Tracey,Heidi,Anthony,Trevor,Colby and I plan on releasing balloons in your memory.I hope you catch one..... Love and peace Marcia
Posted by:
jacktubert
Posted on:
June 28, 2007
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
June 27, 2007
Wednesday,27 June 2007 I know you are watching over all of us today.I woke up with such a feeling of emptiness.It's so hard to believe that a year has passed.Life goes on they say...the day to day trivialites. I imagine you whispering to us,go listen to Barbra Streisand's version of "Smile"to help get you through this sad day. Smile,though your heart is aching.Smile,even though its breaking.When there are clouds in the sky,you'll get by If you smile through your fears and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow you'll see the sun come shining through...For you. Light up your face with gladness,hide every trace of sadness,Although a tear may be ever so near. That's the time you must keep on trying,Smile what's the use of crying?You'll find that life is still worthwhile.....If you'll just smile... Mom I miss and love you Marcia
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
June 21, 2007
Hi Mom, I'm having a real tough week. I miss you so much, it hurts so badly. I don't know if it's because it's approaching your one year anniversary since your passing, but, I've really had horrible dreams. Why can't I have nice dreams of you? You know, all the great times we had on vacations? I don't dream of those times, unfortunately, my dreams are of your last year when you were so frail...seeing no progress...discouraged. One year ago this weekend I remember telling you that the doctors said you'd be discharged to rehab on Wednesday. I really tried to encourage you after hearing from your doctors your positive clinical findings, but, in hindsight, I overlooked how YOU were really feeling. I remember you saying that you didn't know if you were really ready for rehab and questioned if you could handle it. With all those reservations, why didn't I stay with you Tuesday night? If I was in your room and saw that you were in respiratory distress, I could have alerted the nurses. I kick myself for not being with you then. Instead, I get a call at 4:00 a.m. Wednesday from a resident who said you "expired." Oh my God, how cold and brutal that statement was! I was in shock and didn't want to believe him. Oh Mom, if only I could turn back the hands of time...I would have stayed with you Tuesday night. I'm still in total shock that you're not in my life anymore. YOU were the most important person in my life and I've never loved anyone as much as I love you and NEVER will! I sit in this new home of mine with loads of pictures of you and I ask why can't you just be with me so I can hug & kiss you instead of looking at these pictures? Mom, what is after-life like? Are you able to look down upon me? I hope so because I really need to feel your presence. I am so looking forward to seeing you in heaven... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! Tracey
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
May 26, 2007
Hi Mom, I can't believe it's Memorial Day weekend. Like Marcia, I remember that last year the hot weather made it much more difficult for your breathing. Unfortunately Mom, all my dreams are still of your last year...your frail condition...so tired...so weak...so discouraged... But, when I went for a run this morning, I thought about the Memorial Day weekend that we shared at Hampton Beach when it was cold, drizzly and damp weather. I remember how tickled you were when you saw the hotel signs stating, "vacancy, we have heat!" How comical it was for us...spending a holiday weekend at the beach in the beginning of the summer and we have the heat on!!! We had so much fun playing cards, having a few cocktails, totally enjoying our time despite the weather! If only I could turn back the hands of time, I'd be there in a flash! Mom, I dread holidays without you. How I wish you were here so that you could see my new home and have a wonderful cookout with me. Promise me you'll give me a sign this weekend that you're with me and looking over me? Mom, I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH, IT HURTS SO BADLY!!!! Oh, I can't wait to see you in heaven!!! Eternal love, Tracey
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
May 25, 2007
Sitting here thinking of last Memorial day.A year ago Sunday was much like today.Sunny and hot. I took you to Spag's so you could pick out 2 planters for Gramma French and Auntie Lea.You had your portable oxygen tank and you struggled thru the flower lot. When we got to the cemetary,you were determined to fill the planters with water.I could see that it took so much effort and you would not let me help! I watched as you bent over each of the headstones and whispered,"I'll see you soon".....at that very moment I looked at you and I got frightened.Remember the conversation we had? I will cherish that memory. Miss you
Posted by:
jacktubert
Posted on:
May 23, 2007
Hi Mom, Congratulations on the birth of your newest Great Granddaughter Kylie Tubert. Yep it's offical the paternity tests came back and Patrick is a Dad. I am only a week late but I wanted you to know. I have a feeling that you knew before we did? I am heading back to Phoenix Friday and looking forward to meeting our new family member. Going to get a few days at home and then back to Boca Raton for a few more weeks. I now know why you and Tony loved Florida so much. As each of my brothers and sisters have experienced I face my first birthday without you. I had 57 wonderful birthdays as your first child. Sunday I experience my 58th without you. Each day I have been to the beach this past week I sense that you are close by? I cannot for the life of me figure out why some of us have this need to be by an ocean or the fact that we feel comfort when we are there? But in my heart I feel the answer is with you. Mum thank you! Love, Jackie
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
May 16, 2007
46 weeks today. Your mother is always with you.She's the whisper of the leaves as you walk down the street;she's the the smell of bleach in your freshly laundered socks;she's the cool hand on your brow when you're not well.Your mother lives inside your laughter.She's crystallized in every tear drop.She's the place you came from,your first home;and she's every step you take.She's your first love and your first heartbreak,and nothing on earth can separate you.Not time,not space....not even death. Love and miss you Marcia
Posted by:
jacktubert
Posted on:
May 14, 2007
Happy Mothers Day, I am sure that each of us missed calling you yesterday. And I am sure that none of us thought that you would pass away when you did. You guided each one of us through the maze of life. And this one day was the day we could say thank you. You certainly had the hardest job in the world being a Mother to 7 children. The thing I appreciate is you raised 7 individuals and allowed us to be what ever we wanted to be. Yesterday I thought back to you fixing me lunches to take to Tatnuck Country Club when I was a caddy. Or leaving a couple of bucks on the little stove in the kitchen if you were out of the house. I thank you for my life. Without that I would never have gotton to enjoy Kelly, Shannon and Patrick. I would never have gotton to know Analysa, Brandon or Colin. Not sure what the new Grandchilds name will be but without you none of this could be. Happy Mothers Day! You are so missed by everyone. Love, Jackie
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
May 14, 2007
Yesterday was such a pretty day.Did you like all the flowers that all of us left.The cute windmills. I reminded John that just last year you looked so frail.All the colorful blouses made you smile.Who knew then you would never be able to wear them.What a difference a year makes. I talked to John's mother yesterday who knew I was a little"blue".She is always so encouraging by her faith.Don't worry,she's having a good day.Learning new things and probably so happy that she's not forgotten. Love you Mom
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
May 14, 2007
Happy Mother's Day, Mom. What a sad day it was without you. Mike & I were hoping for a sign at the cemetery. Did you like the flowers and the angel we brought you? To think that last year was my last Mother's Day with you...I remember you weren't feeling well and didn't want me to take you out to brunch. I was just happy to be able to spend the day with you in your cozy little apt. It's almost a year since you've been gone and it still hurts so badly...I miss you...my best friend. I just bought a home and how I would have loved for you to see it and spend Mother's Day there with me. There are lots of pictures of you in my home so at least your warm smile brightens each room. Mom, I pray you watch over me...pray that you're at peace...pray that God is taking good care of you. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! Always and forever, Tracey
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
April 12, 2007
My first sign today was the alarm clock going off at 4:30 to the song by James Taylor."The Secret of Life" Powerful message Mom.Thank you The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time,any fool can do it,there ain't nothing to it.Nobody knows how we got to the top of the hill,but since we're on the way down,we might as well enjoy the ride. Now the thing about time is that time isn't really real.It's just your point of view.How does it feel for you.Einstein said he could never understand it all,planets spinning thru space,the smile upon your face. Try not to try too hard,its just a lovely ride...now the secret of life is enjoying the passage of time.... The second sign was hearing sweet Katie's Happy Birthday,sung Beatles style,to me... Mom it is a lovely ride after all,isn't it. I feel your spirit today Love and Peace
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
April 11, 2007
The water is wide I cannot cross over and neither have I wings to fly...build me a boat that will carry two,and both shall row,my Mom and I There is a ship and she sails the sea.She's loaded deep as deep can be,but not so deep as the pain I'm in...I know not how I sink or swim.... I cannot believe I will not be hearing your birthday song to me tomorrow. Love and Peace
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
April 9, 2007
Easter Sunday Hi Mom, I was thinking about Easter last year with you in Hampton at the Galley Hatch Restaurant. Who would have ever thought it would be my last Easter with you? Last trip to Hampton? Now Easter without you is meaningless. I miss you so much...the pain is just not going away...I cry for you every day. I wish there was a way for me to know that you're at peace and looking over me. Did you know Marcia and I were at the cemetery today? I wish we could have gotten a sign...I know you'd love the cute bunny that Marcia brought you...so you! I hope you liked the lilies...and the cute angel windmill that Heidi brought you. We all love you and miss you dearly... Can't wait to see you in heaven, Mom. Love you, Tracey
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
March 21, 2007
Hi Mom We are never ready to let go of our mother's hand,but her death shapes our hearts one last time.Without her,our love spills out in all directions,falling here and there,in the most unlikely places.Perhaps it is her greatest gift,to leave us aching for each other. Peace and love
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
March 9, 2007
Hi Mom, I missed your call this morning when you'd sing happy birthday to me. It always made me smile and feel so warm inside. This has been a tough week, Mom, missing you so badly. We should be celebrating our birthdays on a beach somewhere south. I'll look forward to my song when I see you in heaven... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! Tracey
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
March 5, 2007
March 6 2007 Happy Birthday Mom Love and Peace
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
March 5, 2007
March 6, 2007 HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM! I wish I could have had the opportunity to throw another surprise birthday party for you to celebrate your 80th, the way we did for your 70th. I'll never forget the look on your face when you walked into Leo's Restaurant and saw everyone waiting to wish you a happy birthday. Tears of joy...what a special day. God, I wish we could be doing the same thing for your 80th. But, I'm hoping that you & Tony will enjoy your special day together. I hope you saw the pretty flowers Marcia & I left for you...the balloon and candles too...simple, but I know you'd enjoy it. Mom, it still hurts so badly, you not being here with me. I wore your red sweater the other day and cried because when I put it on, it smelled like you...your Nina Ricci perfume. Mom, I love you more than I've ever loved anyone...we had such a special relationship...and I'm so thankful for that. Love always & forever, Tracey
Posted by:
jacktubert
Posted on:
March 5, 2007
Happy Birthday Mom! I am certain that you know how much you are loved and missed. One special joy was to always call you and wish you a Happy Birthday. But it was you who made all of our birthdays so very special. Nothing like picking up the phone and hearing Happy Birthday from you. Mike made a beautiful picture of you holding up a drink and saying "who loves you baby.." It sits her on my desk at home As a constant reminder of just how special you really are. I told Tracey how I found pictures that I had not seen in a long time of you and Tracey visiting us here in Arizona. Over these many months I think I miss your emotional support. Your advise was always right on. No matter how bad things were you always had the right words to say to lessen the blow. Happy 80th Mom! We love and miss you so very much. Jackie
Posted by:
mulcahy
Posted on:
February 22, 2007
Not really sure what I want to say.I'm filled with so many emotions right now. I looked at your picture this morning and wept like a baby. I wanted to go to Tony's wake and put a picture of you with him,but decided against it. It's a lousy thing to be not mentioned in an important announcement.It was hurtful. I trust Tracey will have the right words to say,she being far more articulate than I will ever be. It's silly really writing these feelings,but,it's also very calming. You were so right about how you used to always say life "stinks",so you better enjoy the things that make you happy. It's so hard Mom. I know you're watching over us.Wish you had a magic wand you could wave and make everything easier. Love and Peace
Posted by:
mulcahy
Posted on:
February 19, 2007
Tracey called with the news that Tony had passed yesterday. I hope and pray that if there is a wonderful place, somewhere over the rainbow,that you and he are together walking together on some oceans shore. I miss you Mom I love you Mom I wish I could have said that more often when you were here.There are alot of things I wish I could change.
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
February 18, 2007
Hi Mom, Now I know you're at peace with Tony in your arms. I got the call from Cam & David that Tony passed this morning. The first thing they said is that he's now with you...embraced in your loving arms...that's what I want to think. Mom, I know how devastating it was for you to see Tony when I took you to see him in CT almost 2 years ago. I saw the sadness in your eyes..to see someone so dependent upon care givers for simple activities of daily living. I remember how you told me that the "Tony" you grew to love was a vibrant, independent man...and the man you saw 2 years ago was a stranger. He was frail...disoriented...and his eyes were crying for what once was. It hurt you so badly...our ride back was painful for you, I know. Part of you wanting to stay with him and offer him love and comfort...the other part wanting to forget about what you witnessed and wish for the "Anthony" that once was. He brought you so many happy times and I'm so grateful for that because you deserved it! It's just so sad that it was short-lived...tragic that you spent years of unhappiness in a relationship with Jack...yet you never let those dismal times interfere with your motherly love. I wish life could have been happier for you, Mom, and I pray that the "after-life" is more rewarding for you. I cannot wait to see you, hug you and kiss you when I see you in heaven...and Tony too! Everlasting love, Tracey
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
February 17, 2007
Hi Mom, Valentine's Day has come and gone - how difficult it was for me not to receive a cute card from you. You always chose such loving cards. I still have the little "I love you teddy bear" that you gave me last Valentine's Day in my car and I think of you every time I see it. I've been having horrible dreams about you again - your past hospitalizations...seeing you so frail...vulnerable to your care providers. I wish I could have some happy dreams, times that were better, when you were healthier. I know you're out of pain now and at least that gives me a sense of comfort. But, I miss you so badly...I wish you could come back and give me a hug. I so miss your loving touch. Tonight when I go to bed, I'm going to try to remember one of our nice trips together...Myrtle Beach...my favorite picture of you on the balcony of our hotel...so pretty...oh how I wish I could jump into that picture! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, MOM!!! Tracey
Posted by:
mulcahy
Posted on:
February 16, 2007
Hi Mom Just me again.It's a freezing,windy,but sunny day.I made some saltines/peanut butter crackers today and all I could picture was you making them at all the different cottages at Hampton to bring to the beach!!!! It's funny how the memories come crashing in.My favorite picture of you sits on my kitchen counter.It's you sitting on the shore of Misquamicutt on a huge rock.You look so serene and at peace. I hope that where ever you are,you have that same smile. I miss you Mom
Posted by:
mulcahy
Posted on:
February 14, 2007
Happy Valentine's Day I miss getting my cute card. I miss being able to call and utter the words,"Hi Mom" Love and Peace
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
February 7, 2007
Missing you today So much going on,a little overwhelming Hoping you are watching My heart is aching Peace and love Marcia
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
January 19, 2007
Dear Mom, Last weekend, I helped my girlfriend, Pat, with a yard sale to sell her Mom's belongings. It was a difficult time for Pat because the home in which she grew up is now being sold because her Mom's dementia is worsening. All of her Mom's possessions had so many happy memories and it was so difficult for Pat to let go...I thought of your passing and how difficult it was for me, Lisa and Marcia to go through your belongings...there was a memory behind every single thing we touched of yours. I told Pat how she should feel fortunate that her Mom is still with her but Pat said that the Mom she grew to love is really "not there mentally" because of her dementia. It made me think about how fortunate we were that you were so mentally healthy right up until your unexpected passing. The MDs, residents, nurses, and PCAs were all in awe how you'd remember their names and stories they shared with you. They'd tell me how you were the best patient ever. So compliant, pleasant, and appreciative of the care you were receiving. Mom, it's been over six months since you've passed and I will never get over the loneliness I feel being without you. I'm surviving because I know I have to, but, my life will never be the same without you...I look at the pictures of us on the wall above my computer and I just want to jump into them and relive our happy times. I just can't wait for our reunion in heaven...oh, how I'll love a hug and kiss from you! With much love and many prayers for peace, Tracey
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
January 11, 2007
Over a half year you've been gone.I woke up feeling very sad today.So much going on. "Sorry,I never told you,all I wanted to say.Now its too late,Cause you've flown away,so far away. Never,had I imagined living without your smile.Feeling,and knowing you hear me.It keeps me alive. And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,like so many friends we've lost along the way,and I know eventually we'll be together.One sweet day... I assumed you'd always be here,I took your presence for granted.But,I always cared,and I miss all we shared. I know when I lay down to sleep,you'll always listen,as I pray. Sorry,I Never told you,all I wanted to say.... On my way home from Heidis last night,it was quite late and there was an extremely bright star,that seemed to be following me.I hope you listened to my plea for help.Let the healing of all the emotional scars begin.Help Heidi,Kelly,Alexander,Lisa...all of us find our way out of this darkness. Love and Peace Mom Sleep in heavenly peace....
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
December 28, 2006
Dear Mom, Christmas was so somber without you. I miss you terribly. It hurts so much to not have you in my life. Were you looking down on me on Christmas? Did you have tears in your eyes too? I'm sitting here right now wanting to call you...my best friend...to say hello. I so need to talk to you right now. I desperately need a hug and kiss from you. With the year coming to a close, I've looked at the cards you've sent me the past few years. Every card says how you pray that it's a happier and healthier new year. Why didn't God make it healthier for you? I still don't understand. You...being the kindest, caring, most loving person...why did God take you from me? I'm still plagued with the "what ifs?" I should have stayed with you at the Brigham the night before you were scheduled to be transferred to rehab. You were scared...you were tired...but, if I had stayed with you that night, and you became weary, maybe I could have comforted you...maybe you'd still be here with me? I'm no longer afraid of dying because I know that you'll be there to greet me in heaven. You are and will always be the most important person in my life! Forever love, Tracey
Posted by:
jacktubert
Posted on:
December 25, 2006
Merry Christmas Mom I could not let the day go by without wishing you a Merry Christmas! Maureen and I went over to Shannon's house last night to drop off the Santa gifts. Everyone is meeting there today around 1:30. She showed me all of the decorations that came from you. So you will be with us. I got a phone call last night from Aunt Shirley. She seemed very sad that she was alone. We talked about Christmas past at 2 Conger Road. It is that time of day when I would normally talk to you on this day. I was happy to hear that Heidi and Marcia are spending the day today. That is an awesome gift. The clan in Arizona misses you and wishes that we could hear your voice. You are in our hearts, thoughts and prayers. Merry Christmas Mom. Jackie
Posted by:
marcia mulcahy
Posted on:
December 24, 2006
Christmas Eve I have worried many moonless nights.Cold and weary with a hurt inside and I wonder what I've done. I am waiting in a silent prayer.I am frightened by the hurt I bear.In a world as cold as stone,must I walk this path alone.Be with me now.Be with me now. Breath of Heaven,hold me together.Be forever near me...Breath of Heaven.....Breath of Heaven..lighten my darkness.... Help me be strong.Help me be.Help me.... Breath of Heaven hold me together..... Last year you and I had a little cry together when you handed back to me the Christmas Tree rug I made for you all those years ago.It was kind of a running joke back then when it seemed to take forever to hook all the yarn that eventually became pretty lovely to look at.Each year you would say,well,I guess it'll be finished next year....But,you proudly displayed it at Conger Rd,Wexford Village,Superior Rd and it looked most beautiful in your humble apartment decorated so "you"... So,when you gave it back to me,it was hard for me to realize that someday you wouldn't be here with all of us.Thinking back to that day,I had no idea that it would be this year.You told me to make sure Heidi would carry on the tradition of bringing it out and putting it in front of her tree.You said to me back on Halloween 2005 that maybe that would bring us all together again. We've all been invited to Heidi and George's tomorrow and I guess you must have had a hand in this miracle too. Sleep in Heavenly Peace and know that you are missed. Breath of Heaven hold me together..... Marcia
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
December 13, 2006
Hi Mom, Last night was my last bereavement session at church and I will miss it. I gained much strength from the group - we all share in the loss of a loved one. We ended the session in a candlelight service where we all lit a candle for our loved one. We said this prayer, "And I will light a candle for you. To shatter all the darkness and bless the times we knew. Like a beacon in the night. The flame will burn bright and guide us on our way. Oh today I light a candle for you. The seasons come and go, and I'm weary from the change. I keep moving on, you know it's not the same. And when I'm walking all alone, do you hear me call your name? Do you hear me sing the songs we used to sing? You filled my life with wonder, touched me with surprise, always saw that something special deep within your eyes. And through the good times and the bad, we carried on with pride, I hold onto the love and life we knew." Mom, I pray that you're at peace, that you're in the loving arms of God and that you're looking down upon me with a smile. Remember, I want a big hug and kiss when I see you in heaven! My eternal love, Tracey
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
December 4, 2006
Dear Mom, Thanksgiving was terrible without you. I missed the phone call I became so accustomed to receiving from you, "Happy Turkey Day." I met Marcia & John at the cemetery and it was pouring rain. I'm convinced it was tears of sadness shared by all, including you, not being here with us. Now more than ever, I realize that you made the holidays special for all of us. I looked forward to holidays because of you...now, I dread them. Christmas is fast approaching...what will Christmas Eve be without your yummy appetizers eaten at your cozy & beautifully decorated apt.? One day at a time, I know... I just finished the book, "For One More Day," that Marcia let me borrow. Now I know why she enjoyed it so much. I also wish I had one more day with you...to spend happily...and lovingly. My favorite quote in the book was, "When someone is in your heart, they're never truly gone. They can come back to you, even at unlikely times." I have to tell myself to believe in this...that even though you're "gone" you're watching over me and that I'll feel your presence...especially when I truly need you. Mom, you will be in my heart forever and ever. You better give me a big hug and kiss when I see you in heaven! Love always & forever, Tracey
Posted by:
shannonmclaurin
Posted on:
November 29, 2006
Posted by:
Marcia Mulcahy
Posted on:
November 24, 2006
Standing at the cemetary was one of the hardesthing to get thru yesterday.I left you one of your angels to let youknow we all miss you.I spent a couple hours with Anthony,Trevor and Colby,thanks for themiracle.I waited all day for the phone to ringand hear your voice saying,"Gobble,gobble,Happy Turkey day.!!!I can't believe I'll never hear it again!Peace
Posted by:
jacktubert
Posted on:
November 24, 2006
Hi Mom, It is the day after Thanksgiving. I never got home for many of them but the phone call was what I always waited for or made. Even Shannon made mention of it yesterday. Speaking of Shannon she did an awesome job feeding the crew here in Arizona. It is always a special day when all of us are together, Mo and Patrick had to work so we ate dinner late in the afternoon. It appears that we are going to be blessed with another Grandchild. Patrick and his girl Katie are expecting in April. Life is amazing. He was funny he said \"Dad I have something I need to tell you.\" It was just one of those special moments of being a parent. You always seemed excited when I called you back years ago with the news of each one of the kids. I hope you can watch over Katie and the baby. Just another reason to be thankful. I played golf yesterday with Sandy Arnold my old GM and we both had a great discussion of celebrating holidays without your Mom. She lost her Mom and Dad back to back two years ago. But it was nice knowing that somebody else realized how I was feeling. I played really bad on the front 9 but did real well on the back. Thought maybe you had something to do with it? I took Patrick to the dentist today he was supposed to have some work done, but they rescheduled it for tomorrow. We had lunch across the street from where you and Tracey stayed. He asked if I remembered the night we took you both to dinner there. I said that was a great visit for you and Tracey. So many wonderful memories of days past. I know that you know you were deeply missed yesterday. I thank you for watching over us and keeping us well. Thank you for getting us through the day. I am sure that each one of us heard your voice yesterday. Love, Jackie
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traceytubert
Posted on:
November 21, 2006
Hi Mom, I just watched Tony Bennett's special, "An American Classic," and all I could think about was you. I remember talking to you about this special when they first advertised it last spring...you said that you looked forward to watching it...that you loved Tony Bennett...that you couldn't believe he'd be turning 80 yrs. old and he still had a wonderful voice. Well, you would have enjoyed it...he has aged gracefully...he enjoys entertaining...and has a voice that is loved by young and old. That's a unique quality! How I wish I was watching the special with you...it makes me so sad...the simple pleasures that you and I enjoyed. And they're all gone...just memories. It's starting to hit me like a slap in the face that the holidays...Thanksgiving... in just 3 days...will be without you. I know I've said it before, but, if I had just one wish, it would be for you to be here with me again...I can't bear the thought of the holidays without you! Mom, you made the holidays so special!!! I want our phone conversations back again...remember? "Happy Turkey Day" you'd say to me. Oh, how empty it will be without that greeting and our time together...Mom, please be with me in spirit on the holiday...a sign that you're looking over me, please? My God, I'd do anything for a hug and kiss from you...I miss you so much! I love you dearly, Mom! Forever love, Tracey
Posted by:
Marcia Mulcahy
Posted on:
November 16, 2006
From The Lakota Way,by J.Marshall To get us through the next weeks ahead. Life can give you strength.Strength can come from facing the storms of life,from knowing loss,feeling sadness and heartache,from falling into the depths of grief.You must stand up in the storm.You must face the wind and the cold and the darkness.When the storm blows hard you must stand firm,for it is not trying to knock you down,it is really trying to teach you to be strong. Being strong means taking one more step toward the top of the hill,no matter how weary you may be.It means letting the tears flow through the grief.It means you keep looking for the answer,though the darkness of despair is all around you.Being strong means to cling to hope for one more heartbeat,one more sunrise.Each step,no matter how difficult,is one more step closer to the top of the hill.To keep hope alive for one more heartbeat at a time leads to the light of the next sunrise,and the promise of a new day. The weakest stop toward the top of the hill,toward sunrise,toward hope,is stronger than the fiercest storm. KEEP GOING. In closing,remember life is a journey sometimes walked in light and sometimes walked in shadow. Happy Thanksgiving Peace
Posted by:
Marcia Mulcahy
Posted on:
November 13, 2006
It's me again....Mom When I sat with you Sat afternoon,I was incredibly sad.I whispered how hurt I was feeling that I couldn't be part of Anthony's 14th!birthday on Sunday.You must have been listening.Anthony called me back yesterday afternoon.He sounded so different,so mature.I was brave and held back the tears.I had not heard one word since April 20,2005.So,whatever you did,I guess miracles can happen,even small ones.But,the little ones are the important ones.Thank you Hopefully you're looking down on us and getting us all thru our "trials and tribulations". Peace and love
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shannonmclaurin
Posted on:
November 13, 2006
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
November 8, 2006
Hi Mom, Last night was the first night of the Bereavement Group at St. Luke's. I had mixed feelings when I was deciding to participate because I was afraid that I'd have no control over my feelings if I started talking about you, our relationship and my emotions since your passing. But, I'm so glad I went and somehow I had strength...I'm convinced you gave me this strength! It's comforting to know that the grief I've been experiencing is normal. Everyone in the group shared similar emotions and it was so helpful to hear of their stories and loved ones. One of the facilitators recommended a short book for me to read, called, "In Memoriam" by Henri Nouwen, a priest, whose mother was the most important person in his life. In this book he spoke about his mother's last days in the hospital, her agonizing moments, the pain he felt as he witnessed her getting closer to death. I could really relate to this story and I wanted to quote some of his passages which reflects some of my own thoughts of you and your passing. He said of his mother, "How will things be and feel when she's no longer part of my life? Over the years I have often asked myself of this question, even though I realized that there was no answer because the experience was so totally unknown. I became aware that during the years of my childhood, adolescence and adulthood, the bonds with my mother had grown so deep and so intimate that I would never be able to know their full significance before her death. Everytime I tried to think of my life without her, my mind went blank, leaving me completely unable to imagine anything. I know that I must be patient and allow her who taught me so much by her life to teach me even more by her death." Well, Mom, I'm trying my hardest to be patient and I'm learning alot about myself since your passing. Please continue to watch over me, Mom, and I will continue to pray that God is taking good care of you...my best friend. With deepest love, Tracey
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jacktubert
Posted on:
November 7, 2006
Good Morning Mum, Not sure why but I woke up this morning feeling very sad? I think I told you that Tracey had sent me a card from the Funeral Home and I take it with me and set it beside the bed. I have got a holder for it so it stands up. But I looked at your card and I felt very sad. Traveling has never bothered me and you always seemed to enjoy my adventures around the country. I have said to several people that I really feel that my new job was given to me by you. The hotel that I am working in is very disfunctional and not sure if I can fix it? Maybe that is why I am sad? I know that my Grandson Colin is not feeling well and I worry about him and Shannon. Just not sure what is wrong today. It is on a day like this I would pick up the phone and call you and you would have exactly the right fix to the problem. Funny I cannot remove your name from my cell phone. I had a nice phone call the other day with Mark. It was Ben's birthday and I wanted to make sure he got my phone message. Talk about a nice kid, Ben is wonderful. I think you would be very proud of him. He was so strong for you at the Funeral Home and Church. Well I am feeling better. This web page is awesome. I think that as Thanksgiving get's closer is what I might be upset about? I missed alot of them while I was in the AF but I remember the ones I did get to come to and the memories are wonderful. Even memories of Thanksgiving at 2 Conger Rd are still clear. Nobody did Tom Turkey better than you! Although Maureen has done a great job these 34 years. I am rambling again. I pray that you are at rest and looking down at the clan with a big smile. I worry about my younger sisters and how they are going to be this first holiday without you? I know that you will be with all of us in your way. I guess I should close. I leave here on Friday, spend Saturday at home and Sunday head back to Charlotte. I wish I could call you but I accept this web site as the next best thing. The only thing that would be better is if you could talk back. You are loved and missed! I thank you for giving me life! I thank you for all the teaching! I thank you for the unconditional love! Thank you for being in my heart. Jackie
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traceytubert
Posted on:
November 6, 2006
Hi Mom, Mike & I went up to the cemetery and we were so surprised to see the wooden cross, beautiful wreath and memorial candle that Buzz placed by your marker. The candle gave me such a sense of closeness to you...because I know how much you loved candles. I remember the smell of the scented candles burning in your homey apt. I'm so happy that I have pictures of your cute place...you had such a flair for decorating unpretentiously...simple treasures.. placed so tastefully. I'm taking one day at a time...trying not to get overwhelmed with the thought of you not being with me to share the holidays. Tomorrow night, I'm going to St. Luke's bereavement group to talk about handling the holidays after losing a loved one. I hope it helps to hear about other individuals' experiences and their suffering...and maybe connect with them...that I'm not alone...and maybe they can offer some strategies for getting through this difficult time. Mom, I love you dearly and I'm hoping that as I sit at my computer right now, you're looking down at me with a smile...and maybe...just maybe...I'll feel your presence. How wonderful that would be! My eternal love, Tracey
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shannonmclaurin
Posted on:
November 3, 2006
Posted by:
Marcia Mulcahy
Posted on:
October 31, 2006
Bluebird,flying high tell me what you sing If you could talk to me What news would you bring of voices in the sky Nightingale,hovering high Harmonize the wind Darkness,your symphony I can hear you sing of voices in the sky. Mom help me get through today.
Posted by:
Marcia Mulcahy
Posted on:
October 30, 2006
Monday morning I know you must be pleased with your resting place.Buzz brought up some painted pumpkins,Tracey brought some flowers,and I brought a pumpkin filled with flowers.Your marker "looks"like you.Simple but elegant.I took a few photos.Will pass along soon. I say you must be pleased,because while Tracey and I were sitting with you,out of nowhere came the softest snowflakes/snowfall on our faces.It was quite chilly and windy,but,thru a sunny,cloud a little reminder was enough for the two of us that you must have been watching.I know what you all must be thinking,first the butterfly,now snowflakes.I more than anyone am at a loss as to an explanation.I guess it's her gift to all of us. The marker looks like her apartment did at the holidays.So festive. You're right Tracey.The Great Pumpkin was too painful for me to watch.I have such bittersweet feelings this time of year.Another year without being able to celebrate Heidi's birthday with her and seeing my'boys'in their costumes.I will always cherish the memories I have of Conger Rd and Mom getting more excited than the kids. Tomorrow I will sit with her up in Paxton and maybe she'll be able to ease my pain Who knows maybe she'll give me another sign. To all of my brothers and sisters. Love and Peace Marcia
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traceytubert
Posted on:
October 30, 2006
Dear Mom, When I was in church yesterday morning, I prayed that you'd give Marcia and me a sign when we visited you yesterday afternoon. My prayers were answered with the snow flakes that lasted for just a couple of minutes, as Marcia and I sat by your marker with tears in our eyes. The marker is beautiful but we kept asking ourselves, "how can it be that we're reading your name?" I wish it was your apartment that we were helping you decorate for the holidays. Instead, it was your marker that we tried to make look festive. I keep telling myself that you wouldn't want me to be sad...but it still hurts so badly...not being able to talk to you and hug you...how I miss that! Holidays will now be absent of your pretty, thoughtful cards...the emptiness of it all... This Thursday night at church there's a special mass called the "Feast of all Souls" and it's dedicated to those loved ones that we've lost. Your name will be read at this mass...and I will pray that you continue to watch over me and provide me with signs periodically to show me that you're in a better place and at peace... I love you dearly, Mom!!! Tracey
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traceytubert
Posted on:
October 27, 2006
Hi Mom, I miss our talks at the end of the day. I miss you so badly and oh how it hurts. I was at one of my hospital accounts today and there were 2 individuals presenting to the medical staff on the topic of unexpected outcomes that occur during medical or surgical care. One of the presenters was "the patient," who in 1999, went in for an elective surgical procedure at the Brigham Hospital and unfortunately was the victim of a medical error. Apparently, local anesthesia was accidentally delivered into her blood stream and she went into cardiac arrest and underwent emergency open-heart surgery in an attempt to revive her. The other presenter was the anesthesiologist who administered the anesthesia and was responsible for the adverse event. Needless to say, this was a horrible, unforeseen event, but thankfully she survived. Both the patient and the anesthesiologist suffered emotionally and physically from this event. Both shared their poignant stories. The bottom line is that they both felt compelled to found an organization in which clinicians, patients and family members can access for emotional support following an unanticipated medical outcome. I shared my personal story of losing you...how ironic...you also at the Brigham. I told them how it would have been nice if I had known about these support services, as I would have taken advantage of them after losing you, my best friend, so unexpectedly. They admitted that these services, initiated at the Brigham, are just beginning to be advertised and other hospitals are know hearing about the program and have begun making referrals to this wonderful organization. This organization really seems to be committed to providing support to those who need it and promote the healing process after an unexpected outcome. I would have called them in a flash if I had known about the organization, on the morning of your passing...Wednesday, June 28th. I was in such belief when I got the call at 4:30 a.m...the resident telling me that you "expired." What an awful, cold term...there was silence...and then I was screaming and crying and yelling at him that he had to be mistaken. After all, you were supposed to be transferred to a rehab facility that morning! It's still such a nightmare...maybe that's why I can't recall the "happy memories" like my brothers, sisters and nieces. My only memories are from within the last year...unfortunately, unhealthy times...my mind won't allow me to recall the days of 2 Conger Road or any other time. I want to remember the happier, healthier times, but I guess I have to be patient. Mom, the holidays are so close now and it's going to be so hard without you. Even tonight, guess what's on TV? Charlie Brown's "It's the Great Pumpkin." You loved watching that and you'd make sure you called me to tell me it's on. Then there's Thanksgiving, Christmas...without you...how can that be? Mom, I pray you help me get through the holidays...give me another sign, okay? I'll be going to the cemetary on Sunday...I was told your marker was finally placed. Another sad reminder of finality... I love you forever and can't wait to see you in heaven....Tracey
Posted by:
shannonmclaurin
Posted on:
October 26, 2006
I am 2000 miles away from where you are resting.......yet now, becuase of the new feature this county park is offering, I can view the park on a web cam! How neat is that!?!?! It sure does look cold and "wintery" there! Marcia: My book arrived yesterday! I cannot wait to read it! Gram, hope your resting peacefully! I love you!
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jacktubert
Posted on:
October 26, 2006
Hi Mom, Please forgive me for not talking to you in awhile. I was never very good at communicating. I have to tell you that Marcia sent out Halloween cards that looked like yours. It really touched me. She also recommended a book for Shannon and Katie to read. I told my boss about the book and she walked out and bought it right after I stopped talking about it. I think it is called "For One More Day," and it sounds like a great book and I will buy it to read on the airplane. What all of us would do with one more day being with you? Makes me think back to your always making me lunch when I was a caddy at the Tatnuck Country Club. You always wrote a note and put 5 dollars in the bag. I have never been able to make a bologna sandwich on a bulkie to taste like yours? I thank Marcia for making us aware of the book. I have been in San Francisco all week. I head back home tomorrow. Looks like I may get a whole week at home. She has given me a bunch of work that I can do from home. They bought me an awesome lap top computer. I visited our hotel in Santa Clara today. The woman who is the HR Director lost her husband a year ago. She was very helpful today in making me understand some of my feelings over your leaving us. I had to agree with her, she said that it looks like you did an amazing job raising 7 children. When we stopped in front of 2 Conger Road the morning of the 1st I asked myself how did she do it. I do not think that 2 Conger Road looks very happy anymore. I have to agree with Marcia that Halloween was always a great time at 2 Conger. And when we were stationed at Westover we came down and you had those huge sun glasses on. I think I saw that picture a few weeks ago. The web cam is a nice touch. It is almost like being there. I also check in on the Hampton Beach web cam just to feel close. I watched a great show on PBS with Peter, Paul and Mary the other night. I guess they spent time with you and the kids at Hampton? I always like when they came to the auditorium and Dad would get us great tickets. The point to this is it is amazing how that would trigger a memory? Before I went on this trip I was working in the garage and found a box with all the birthday cards and father's day cards you sent over the years. One of the last times I got to talk to you on the phone you apologized for not sending a father's day card. Well at least I got to see some foliage up here in San Francisco. Do not think it is as pretty as what Tracey described a few weeks ago about Massachusetts. I was suprised when I was in North Carolina last week the leaves had not changed? Mum I miss you and love you. This web site is a blessing. I will talk to you soon. Thanks for being my angel! Love, Jackie
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Marcia Mulcahy
Posted on:
October 25, 2006
Good morning 17 weeks today Mom.It's a beautiful day.I want to go see your marker later.But,I don't know if I can handle it.So final. I spent some time Sat evening looking at all your pictures with us and all the grandkids.There were such good times. Halloween is coming.I can still see all of us at Conger Rd getting the kids ready.You feeding them the Spaghetti.Heidi's first birthday with your first"barbie"cake you learned how to do at the baking class you took.Remember that? It's so hard knowing it's over.I pray that all of us get thru these next couple months with all the dignity and grace you always showed. Love you Mom Marcia
Posted by:
Marcia Mulcahy
Posted on:
October 17, 2006
Good morning The pictures added are so wonderful.Thanks to all who contributed. The cemetary was so pretty Sunday.Little pumpkins everywhere.Mom we,need to bring you one. I finished a book by Mitch Albom."For one more day" I WANT Katie and Shannon to buy it and read it,please!!! I will write a passage that really hit home for me,considering all the things "going on" "I believe my mother saved my life.I also believe that parents,if they love you,will hold you up safely,above their swirling waters,and sometimes that means you'll never know what they endured,and you may treat them unkindly,in a way you otherwise wouldn't. But,there's a story behind everything.How a picture got on a wall.How a scar got on your face.Sometimes the stories are simple,and sometimes they are hard and heartbreaking.But behind all your stories is always your mother's story,because hers is where yours begins. So this was my mother's story. And mine. I would like to make things right again with those I love"... The book really hit home for me on so many levels. I'm thankful that Katie has "forgiven"me for whatever it is that happened April 05 and before. I will always remember one of my last chat's with Mom who couldn't understand why there was so much unhappiness.I broke down with her and kept saying over and over,WHY? She just sat so stoically and said,Now you know how I have felt on so many occasions.It's lousy,huh??? Katie,Shannon please learn from the heartache we are all feeling.It's not too late Peace Marcia
Posted by:
shannonmclaurin
Posted on:
October 17, 2006
Posted by:
jacktubert
Posted on:
October 13, 2006
Hello Mom, Sitting here listening to Peggy Lee singing "Is that all there is." I got a call earlier in the week from Aunt Shirley telling me that Uncle Joe passed away. Tracey, Marcia and Mike went to the wake last night. Aunt Shirley did not remember Tracey. At about 8:30 my time 11:30 in Worcester the phone rings and it is Aunt Shirley calling to tell me that Uncle Joe died and he was being buried tomorrow (today). I did not have the heart to tell her she called me earlier in the week. I can only think that heaven just got alittle more fun with Uncle Joe. When I saw him in July his eyes were as warm as ever and that big smile. I have to agree with Tracey that the way you planned yours was the right choice. It must have been hard on Susan and Shirley with all those people. I cannot tell you how much I like this web page. I did send Katie an email wishing her a Happy Birthday and I pasted in a musical note. Nothing like yours but I wanted her to know that we love her. I like that Shannon and Katie talk to you. I noticed the other day that Tracey and Shannon have loaded some pictures on your web page. Brought tears to my eyes when I saw the picture of you and Tracey and my kids. Great memories! Thank you both for doing that. Well I have taken up enough space. I travel to North Carolina on Sunday. I know that you will be with me. The clan sends their love and they miss you. I hope you can find away to give a sign to Tracey. God I wish I could write like her. Love you and miss you. Jackie
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traceytubert
Posted on:
October 12, 2006
Hi Mom, You would have enjoyed the weather this past Columbus Day weekend - just beautiful! Did you know that Mike and I visited you on Sunday? Remember your little nick-name for him??? Looney Tunes...we'll never forget that. I ran the Tufts 10K road race on Monday and dedicated my run to you. I remember how much you enjoyed coming to all my road races and cheering me on...my #1 fan! I still have the picture of you and Tony at Charlie's road race at the finish line in Elm Park. Those were happy days...healthy days...oh, if only I could bring them back. The holidays are approaching closer and closer...you have no idea how much I'm dreading them without you. I wish I could fast-forward to January and not have to deal with the emptiness of the holidays. I never realized until now how much you made all the holidays so special. Your #1 goal was to make everyone else happy, even though you yourself may have been hurting inside. Oh Mom, I pray you help me get through the holidays...please give me a sign that you're watching over me and celebrating in your own way... Mom, I miss you, I love you and think about you every day...I'm left with just memories of how it felt to be hugged and kissed by you, my best friend. Love always, Tracey
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jacktubert
Posted on:
October 8, 2006
Hi Mum, Just wanted to tell you that I love you! It has been a wonderful weekend. I took the clan out Saturday night to TGIF's. Only one missing was Patrick who had to work. We celebrate Colin's second birthday Tuesday. He is a wonderful little boy. I know you would love him. Shannon and Scott are doing a great job raising him. I called Tracey the other day just to let her know that I love her and was thinking about her. She said that the fall foliage is wonderful this year. I was glad to hear that she was going golfing this weekend. She really misses you Mum. Marcia and I have been sending notes back and forth. She is so much like you, she sends wonderful cards. Your cards were always on the mark! I think that is about it for today. As always you are in my prayers and I miss you. I cannot remove your phone number from my quick dial. It is a reminder that I need to stay in touch with my brothers and sisters. Goodnight Mom, I love you! Jackie I talked to Jody today and she has been under the weather for about a week.
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katiefralick
Posted on:
October 5, 2006
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Marcia Mulcahy
Posted on:
October 4, 2006
Thank you Shannon,Jackie and Katie,and Tracey. This helps,doesn't it? My memory would have to be that summer of 1974,at Hampton,with Mom stirring that big pot of Spaghetti sauce and she kept adding red pepper flakes and sipping her scotch and water at the same time...Anyways,talk about HOT!! I can see the look on Jimmy Schnare's face and his watering eyes.Mom standing there on the cottage,the Bruce landing, with her terry cloth cover-up laughing hysterically as Jimmy,me,Buzz,Lisa,ran to the ocean!!!! As Katie mentioned she had the coolest Gram. I couldn't agree more.She was always willing to accept everything.She may not have liked it,but,you'd never know it.I would like to apologize for all the disappointments I may have caused.Mom,I miss you.14 weeks today. Thanks Jackie for this wonderful idea.You do have her smile. Peace,Marcia
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jacktubert
Posted on:
October 4, 2006
Hi Mom, Today is my last day in Hawaii I fly back to Phoenix tomorrow. It has been a great trip. It will be nice to see the clan again! They have kept me busy and it has been very enjoyable. I thank you for being my angel these days in Hawaii. I love and miss you. Aloha, Jackie
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shannonmclaurin
Posted on:
October 2, 2006
Posted by:
traceytubert
Posted on:
October 2, 2006
Dear Mom, Three months since you left me...still hurts so badly...oh, how I miss you. Unfortunately, I'm still plagued by the disturbing memories of the last few months of your life when I began to see you losing hope. I awaken every night from dreams of your final struggle for health, where despair fills your eyes, instead of the sparkle you had once before. I wish I could put those sad memories to rest and be immersed in only wonderful, happy memories of the times we spent with one another. Maybe soon, like my brothers and sisters and nieces, I'll remember all the fond memories of you, my most special friend and loving mother. It is now the autumn season and I remember how you and I both felt about this time of year...a melancholy time. We both enjoyed the the brilliant colors of fall, but, the days get shorter, the weather gets cooler and thoughts of a long, cold winter were dreaded. The one thing I did look forward to was our annual trek to Amherst to walk around the campus and college town. Remember the pictures we took of one another in front of the campus pond? I framed that picture of you and I wish I could jump into it and re-live that day with ou. Now all I have is the memory...no more trips to Amherst with my best friend. I love you Mom and I wish I could have you back again... Forever love, Tracey
Posted by:
jacktubert
Posted on:
October 1, 2006
Good Morning Mom, Looks like another wonderful day in Hawaii. With the 6 hour time difference I had to get up early to watch my football games. I laughed when I read Marcia\'s letter regarding your voice calling all of us home. I also agree with Marcia that if you close your eyes you can hear it. I am feeling under the weather today. Not sure if it was something I ate? Think I will just stay in today. Need to plan my trip back home. I am going to Charlotte, NC on the 15th for a week. Mom I love you! Jackie
Posted by:
jacktubert
Posted on:
September 30, 2006
Hi Mom, A beautiful day in Hawaii is coming to an end. Saw the most amazing sunset last night on Maui. I had to work today but did find time to get to the beach and wash my clothes. You just cannot find the wonderful smell of clothes on the line like we had when we were kids. White Linen at Linens and things is the closest. I wanted to ask everyone if they would share a favorite memory of Mum? I think that each of us has a few but I am curious what everyone thinks? One of my memories is how you would come up stairs to wake me up and just rub the bottom of my feet and say "Jackie time to get up." I have no clue as to why I have that memory but flying back to Honolulu last night it just came to mind. I am reading a book that Tim Russert wrote and I found an interesting quote from Colin Parkes and he said that "Grief is the price we pay for love." Do not know why that struck a note with me? If nobody minds I was sitting down at the beach and was thinking about you catching me smoking down at Christ the King during one of the CYC shows. You never said anything. However I am glad that you told me to stop four years ago. I showed someone here at the hotel the card that Shannon made for you and the person said that I had your smile? Well I am going to get something to eat going on 6:20 PM. I look forward to seeing if we can all share a memory. Love, Jackie
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jacktubert
Posted on:
September 29, 2006
Aloha Mom, It is just the kind of day you would like in Hawaii, 80 degrees, light trade winds. I am going to Maui today to visit with some old friends that I have not seen in 30 years. I am certain you met Joanne she worked for me and I gave her away at her wedding. Just going over for dinner and fly back. Marcia\'s posting was wonderful. I love that Barry Manilow as well. I was suprised to learn that my daughter Shannon does to. Thank you for being my angel, I know you are there. Love, Jackie
Posted by:
jacktubert
Posted on:
September 28, 2006
Good Morning MaMa, It looks like two of your Grandchildren are talking to you. I enjoy the connection that Katie and Shannon have started. It is a small step but we need to celebrate that step with you. I got up early so I could get on a computer and let you know that I love you and miss you. I agree with Katie fall was always a wonderful time at 2 Conger Road or Superior St. The nice thing it all led to Thanksgiving. Nobody in the world does a turkey like you. I am going over to Maui tomorrow and have dinner with some friends from my AF days here in Hawaii. Have not seen them in 30 years but I hope you will join me. His mom just passed away a few weeks ago. So we have something in common beside being stationed together. I only wish I could write like Tracey and Marcia and the grandchildren. But I think I know that you understand. Well time to start my day. Aloha Mum. Love, Jackie
Posted by:
Marcia Mulcahy
Posted on:
September 28, 2006
For my brothers and sisters Somewhere beyond the sea,somewhere waitin for us Our mother stands on golden sands and watches the ships that go sailing. Somewhere beyond the sea,she's there watching for us.If we could fly like birds on high,Then straight to her arms we'd go sailing. It's far beyond the stars,It's near beyond the moon.I know beyond a doubt,our hearts will lead us there someday. We'll meet beyond the shore,we'll all be together just as before.Hay we'll be beyond the sea and never again we'll go sailing. I know beyond a doubt,our hearts will lead us there someday,we'll meet,beyond the shore and we'll hug just as before. Mom loved Barry Manilows version of Bobby Darin's song. I know we will all here that call that I can still hear when I close my eyes.That call to all of us for supper,or to get home from Bailey park,that resonated in the whole neighborhood...standing on tip toes,her hand to her mouth to make a megaphone....."Jackie,Jody,Mark,Marcia,Robert,Lisa,Tracey....... Mom when we're all together maybe we can get it "right"and find the peace to just be as one. Miss you Marcia
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katiefralick
Posted on:
September 27, 2006
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shannonmclaurin
Posted on:
September 27, 2006
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jacktubert
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September 27, 2006
Aloha Mum, I think you already know that I am back in Hawaii and again last night walking on the beach near where you and I spent some talking about everything 30 years ago. I have shared with my brothers and sisters your presence the night that Maureen was here. Last night I had dinner at the Hale Koa again and after my dinner I walked out to the beach and it started to rain. I am convinced that was you. It was just a soft gentle rain. Last week we celebrated Shannon's 31st birthday. At dinner I noticed that she looked sad. I asked her what was wrong and she said that it was the first time she had not received a birthday card from Gram. My children and my grandchildren loved thier Gram. Shannon said that Katie wrote something on the internet were she said that she will miss the musical note you always drew on our birthday cards. Well I need to get to work but I will spend time with you each day. I love you! Jackie
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September 27, 2006
Dad and Gram!
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September 27, 2006
The AZ Tuberts with Gram!
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September 27, 2006
The Tubert Children
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traceytubert
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September 19, 2006
Dear Mom,Thank you for the sign - the little white butterfly...it touched me, Marcia & Lisa...and I'mpositive that you knew we were there. Finally a sign from you...maybe you were waiting for us to be togetherso we could all get the sign. That little butterfly comforted me in a strange way...some how I know you're at peace...that you're watching over us. It was so melancholy...I hope that it's not the only sign. We need to know that you're with us forever...I know you don't want us to shed tears, but, we miss you terribly...your hugs, kisses, warmth...could never be replaced. We were talking about the holidays and how empty they will be without you. You always made the holidays so special and how I lovedto see your little apt. decorated so beautifully. Now, I have only memories...Mom, I love you dearly and please, please stay with me,Tracey
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Marcia Mulcahy
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September 18, 2006
I think my signs from you are the songs I hear.Today on my way to work they played Alone Again,Naturally.Remember that?1972 up at Hampton.That became your catch phrase for a long,long time. I'll only write the key part here. To think that only yesterday,I was cheerful,bright and gay.Looking forward to,and who wouldn't do,The role I was about to play.But as if to knock me down,Reality came around,and without so much as a mere touch,Cut me into little pieces.Leaving me to doubt,all about God and his mercy,Oh,if he really does exist,Why did He desert me?and in my hour of need,I truly am,indeed, Alone again,naturally. Well,reality did come around,and it most certainly did knock me down Mom.... Mom as the Tin Man said in the Wizard of Oz,"Now I know I have a heart,because I feel it breaking"... Mine is breaking. Thank you for the butterfly yesterday,at the cemetary.We know you were with us Love you
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September 13, 2006
Dear Mom,I never realized how painful it would be without you, eachday I wake up feeling empty. I miss talking to you every day...I miss your hugs...your kisses...your kind and caring ways. My love for you was so deep...I could never loveanyone as much as you. As the book, "To Heal Again" writes, "I sit in the shadow of sorrowseeking, searching for the magic that will make the pain go away. No one ever said it was easy tolet go, let be, let life do what it is supposed to do." Mom, I wasn't ready for you to leave me...I wantyou back in my life...if only I was granted that wish. I wish I could feel your presence, your warmth...I pray God is taking good care of you. I pray you're watching over me. I LOVE YOU DEARLY, MOMTracey
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Marcia Mulcahy
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September 12, 2006
Mom,I look at the starts and see you.Are you there? A song for you.I sing this lullaby hoping you are all of our guardian angel. Moonlight fills the skies as angels whisper lullabies and stars come out to dance around the milky way,while streams of moonbeams chase away the light of day. Moonbeams paint your dreams.radiant moonbeams somehow,seem to gently break through the deepest darkness.Light shimmering,glimmering,glowing in the night.Light send from heaven to guide every angels flight. Gleaming over until the darkness turns to dawn,beaming over us until the starlight is gone,streaming over us until the sun rise up hears of the new morn is born. God gives us light,we see our reflection of his reflection all through the night His love shines for you. Light and love Mom I know you're keeping us all safe. Marcia
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Marcia Mulcahy
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September 1, 2006
on the day I was born said my mother,said she-I've an elegant legacy waiting for ye.'tis a rhyme for your lips and a song for your heart to sing it whenever your world falls apart. Look,look,look to the rainbow: follow it over the hill and stream:look,look,look the the rainbow,follow the fellow who follows the dream. 'twas a sumptuous gift to bequeath to a child.Oh,the lure of the song kept my feet running wild.For you never grow old and you never stand still.With a whipporwhill singing beyond the next hill. So,I bundled my heart,and I roamed the world free.to the east with the lark,to the west with the sea.and i searched the world,and i scanned all the skies.But,I found it at last in my own mothers eyes. Look ,look to the rainbow,follow the fellow who follows the dream. Miss you Mom Marcia
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Marcia Mulcahy
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August 26, 2006
Hi Mom Tracey and I are supposed to go visit you tomorrow.Buzz has been there too.Do you see us? I miss you Mom I am so waiting for a sign Peace and love Marcia
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Marcia Mulcahy
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August 15, 2006
Mom,The ocean is the same as it always is.The cottages look almost the same. But, Hampton will never be the same for me.I could see you standing over the stove at The Bruce cooking the memorable spaghetti sauce.I could see you tanning on the hot sand.I could see you swimming so elegantly in the freezing cold water.I closed my eyes and felt you there with me. I miss you Mom Like Tracey,I am waiting for a sign from you.But,I will be patient.I know you're on a wonderful,learning journey.Just know that you are loved and missedPeace,Marcia
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traceytubert
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August 13, 2006
Dear Mom,Saint Luke's dedicated Sunday mass to you today. It was sospecial - that's what you were to me - very, very special. Youwere my whole life...I'm trying my best to pick up the pieces, but it's so difficult. Mike & I brought you some flowers today and prayed at your burial site...we were so hoping for a sign...that you're at peace...that you knew we were there...maybe it's because I still haven't accepted that you're gone. I miss you somuch...I just want you back in my life again...I look at pictures of you and just cry...I wish I could just smile but it hurts too much! I would do anything for another hug and kiss from you!Oh Mom, please give me a sign soon, so I know you're at peace...and I truly need to know that you're looking over me...Please...I love you with all my heart...Love,Tracey
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traceytubert
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August 3, 2006
Mom,I miss you so much...it doesn't get any easier for me.I wish I could hug you and kiss you...I miss that so much!I know you'd want me to be strong and carry on with my life, but it is oh so difficult...I wake up and just go through the motions. Nothing really seems to matter...I miss my best friend dearly! I wish you would give me a sign that you're okay...that you're looking over me...that would mean so much to me.Last week I worked in Saybrook, CT and all I could think about is how you were with me there 2 years ago. We had such a nice time together and I'm so happy that I have those memories, but it makes me sad at the same time, because you weren't with me this time. If I had one wish in this world, it would be that I could have you back again. I love you so much - my life is so empty without you. I pray that youare at peace...but please, please, give me a sign so I know you are at peace....I LOVE YOU!!!
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Marcia Mulcahy
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July 26, 2006
Mom,One month.So painful still.I play all your music and can picture you listening.Rod Stewart singing,"The way you wore your hat,the way you sipped your tea,the memory of all that,no,no they can't take that away from me....Hampton Beach and all the songs.Dreamboat Annie,Hey Nineteen,Someones Knocking at the Door.Remember? To my brothers and sisters.She picked Songs of Life for us."Come and sing your songs of life,that they will keep you from ever wanting,from ever needing...So I sing my songs of life that I will hold you inside forever,that you will know me and I'll be yours and you'll be mine.Thanks Mom.I will tell them what you said,"I did the best I could" I miss youMarcia It's been a month.Still so painful.I play all your music and I can see you listening. Rod Stewarts,The way you wore your hat,the way you sipped your tea..the memories of all that,no,no they can't take that away from me...The way your smile just beamed,the way you sang off key... For me it will always be the music.Hampton Beach listening over and over to Dreamboat Annie,by Heart. Someone's Knocking on the Door,McCartney.Hey Nineteen,Steely Dan Remember? I still am so thankful you chose Neil Diamonds "Songs of Life"for us. The lyrics are so right on.Especially the part
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Marcia Mulcahy
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July 26, 2006
Mom,I keep listening to all your music.I can see you listening to Rod Stewart saying,"the way you wore your hat,the way you sipped your tea.the memories of all that,no,no they can't take that away from me"...Remember at Hampton beach.Singing Dreamboat Annie,Hey Nineteen,Someone's Knocking at the Door,I can still picture you at the Bruce..Where did the time go? I played Neil at the Webster House.Didn't quite go the way I wanted.I will write some of the key words you wanted all of us to know. "Come and sing your songs of life,that they will keep you from ever wanting...from ever needing....forever more. So,I Sing my songs of life that I will hold you inside forever,that you will know me,that I'll be yours and you'll be mine...... I like to think that we're all just travellers between eternities.Hopefully your new journey is so peaceful,tranquil and happy.No more pain Mom. Like I wrote in the last card to you,Your bravery thru all the hard stuff,inspired me.I will always cherish the good times. Peace Marcia
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July 24, 2006
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traceytubert
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July 23, 2006
Dear Mom,I miss you so much. I pray that youare at peace. Please know that you aremy best friend and I think of youevery moment of the day. I wish youwould give me a sign that you're happy and that you know I'm thinking of you andlove you dearly....Marcia & I visited thegrave site today...I hope you like theflowers I sent you. I was so hopingthe sun would shine so I knew we werethere. Stay warm & I can't wait to see you in heaven...Love, Tracey
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July 23, 2006
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Marcia Mulcahy
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July 19, 2006
Mom "Thanks for the memories,how lovely they were"...
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A beautiful Easter morning...The sun came shining through the fog on my way to work....I can close my eyes and still see the cute little bunny cake you made one year... I hope you see the pretty flowers Heidi will be leaving today.I told Trevor to look up and say hi to you for me. Miss you .. love,light,peace always Marcia